Dear Cat,

You are in London now I hear. We haven't spoken in so long. I know that you think that you need to distance your self from certain friends that you had when you were with the Wolf. It is understandable that you would feel this way. I think we all do it when we break up. 

It is ironic that I saw you more since you broke up than the Wolf. It is an irony like out of a movie. And then for you to decide that because I am or was friends with him that you would distance yourself from me and the Brown Bear. I think this is really funny. I hadn't actually been close with the Wolf for many years. we just started growing apart. But I had been getting closer and closer to you for many years. it could make a great screenplay. Anyway, I still feel the same way about you as I relate in my calls to you. You’ll always be a sister to me. I have a profound love for you and the kids. And for the Wolf too of course. (and the Brown Bear tells me every time we speak how much he misses you just so you know.) I just think that over the years that I ended up having more in common with you. more of a simpatico so to speak. Talking about it today with a friend, we realized that you don't have to stay friends with people forever. its o.k. to have your friendships for as long as they last. But at the same time, its important to let your friends know how you feel. 

You meant a lot to me over the years. you gave me a lot of certain things. Love and support and fun and companionship. So I will always remember that. you guys were like my family away from home. so I honor you still and wish you the best for your future even if we don't hang for a while. when you get that close to someone I don't even think it matters after a while if you hang. You are already so close, its like you are connected through the air that you both breathe. 

I hope the new boy in your life turns out to be awesome and you guys live happily ever after! If he ever fucks up please let me know, and I will personally fuck his shit up to no end. 

Love

Fishy 

I think a lot about this now. how our friendships come and go throughout our lives. Some of the people we think are the most important at one time in our lives disappear after a while. who stays? Who lasts forever? family I guess. Family maybe. Its true. Me and the Wolf have continued to drift apart as friends. We just don't have anything in common anymore. Same thing with Coon. Haven't seen or talked to him in years. and me Toad don't even hang out anymore. Haven't in years. but we still talk on the phone. And its weird cause when we talk I still feel like I am talking to a brother. Like he's my twin brother or something. Lost touch with Guru years ago. Heard he got married. I didn't even know about it. I told Toad that it broke my heart not to even know about it. I was trying to play it down how it made me feel. I think that sometimes the tendency is there for us to beat ourselves over losing touch with our friends. But maybe that's not the point of friendships. Maybe they're meant to come in and out of our lives. Maybe they don't necessarily have to last forever. its nice though when they do last a long time.