[ok this actually happened two days afterwards—in the future—but I am inserting it here because it would make more sense here—so by reading this you are actually going forward in time (lucky you). I thought a lot about this last entry the last two days and it just didn’t vibe a hundred percent with me. man it is a challenge really really really being real with yourself all the time. even after you think you are totally real. Maybe this is an ongoing process. The thoughts just come so fast and furious all the time and I just always spit them out into this laptop so fast before I have a chance to think about them. Which i guess is the point of the diaries. They wouldn’t be diaries if i had a chance to think about them and then rewrite them afterwards would they? That would be more like a book or something. Which this isn’t. This is the transcendence diaries after all. o.k. in any case, quickly. I was walking back to my car, and as I was saying I was thinking about this girl thing. you know I can’t really help it, its just always on my mind, and this girl drives by and she looks so beautiful, but not really striking beautiful like we see down here everywhere as much as just really sweet looking. Like you know girl next door good upbringing kind of girl. She had this face like she was an angel. And I thought to myself you know what Fishy? What you wrote two nights is full of shit. All that stuff is important but what you are looking for more than anything else is a girl with a good heart. Someone who is already there. Her being, her soul, has already transcended. A good person. That’s what you're looking for bro. As I was saying this to myself I looked down and noticed this feather on the ground right underneath my feet. And I smiled. Picked it up. Took it as a sign. Looked up to the sky and said thanks god. Thanks for the reminder. But uh, anytime you want to send her my way would be fine with me...]

Current Spin: Louis Armstrong, Christmas album. this is a classic must have.