Talked to the Stallion today for the first time in months. Man. Its been forever. it was very nice. she is here. decided not to see each other. I think if I see her I would attack her and I wouldn’t stop for days. But it was good connecting. We know its not meant to be. 

In the studio all day recording. Piano man’s parts. A lot of good ideas. I am bored with this album now. I am ready for it to be over. I cannot wait to play live and tour. We are on fire right now as a live band. Playing with a new drummer. Doesn’t have a name yet. 

Through all of it, the ups and downs, the total insanity, the unsureity of everything that is my life today, I remain very excited and happy. A kind of miserable happiness if you will. An existential contentment. I am in love with my guitars. They make me so happy. I sleep with a few. And I play them as much as I can. Constantly writing. all throughout my life guitars and pianos have always been my most loved and trusted companions. Playing makes me feel good.  

Looked down tonight and saw I had this card from Little Tree next to my bed and then I had this book she had given me on my table. I thought, wow how did this person get in my life? I mean in the big picture where did she come from? She just appeared. So nice. so real. So sweet and caring. I think maybe she is an angel. Maddie too of course. She is the sweetest person in the world. She gave me these cozy pajama pants to where in the wee hours of the morning. And how did I get so lucky to have these girls in my life that are so nice and caring for me? and they aren't even related to me or anything. And it made me ask myself who am I being an angel to in the world? I want to make sure that I am being an angel to people in my world in order to give back for the few but wonderful people who are that to me. 

Got the new Burns Brian May guitar today. I really wanted to love it. But action is too high. Neck too bulky tremolo bar gets in the way. Knobs are too far away. And the switches are totally not practical for live performance. I don't know what they were thinking. its great to have an actual Brian may guitar. Wow! right? But its just not all that. doesn’t compare to Eddie’s axis series. This is the best guitar I have ever played. 

Saw the band’s new homepage rough draft today. its fucking sick. Beautiful. a lot of work going into it. a team of five, me included, and Bloopy, all working from different parts of the world through msn messenger together on it. It’s going to be something.