Sept 26th Reeling. Thinking in poeming.

Sept 26th
All day symposium at columbia university regarding the furtherance of tibetan culture and the curriculum there. a small group of less than 300 of us. His holiness the Dalai Lama was there, his first time in the US in some time. Richard Gere was there of course. Robert Thurman. it is fascinating to me that the United States still supports china’s occupation of tibet when the dalai lama is so popular all over the world, and yet calls its occupation of Iraq “operation freedom.” Utter hogwash. But a none too subtlly ironic sign of just how ignorant and generally gullible the American people are. not a bad get together for the most part. Met a lot of cool people. most of the conversation was way over my head though.




Reeling from poeming. Thinking in poeming now. poeming in thinking. poeming in speaking.
Yes that is where I am now.
It has been a rebirthing...


Shape shifter too
or
You will never be brought back around


You will never be brought back around
Though you’ll try
But in the blink of an eye
(Or the bat of an eyelash)
I am indeed behind you

And in front of you too
As you shudder and tremble
Late kissing Future kissing
Shape shifting Sword whispering
Time sifting
Through your heavenly hourglass frame
One grain at a time
Till my eyes are no longer denied

I may whirl like a dervish
But my heart rings as true
(and indeed this is what may frighten you)
As the bell at Saint Mary’s
Struck at the hour of midnight
Under a full moon
With you lying naked
And wanting
And yet fully clothed
For fear of your heart again abandoned

I stand at the top of this mountain
Sword drawn and glistening
Torch burning holding
Lips wet
To sing of your praises

In a falsetto tongue
Though my heart never sated
As you cling to your cries
Of a future broken-fated

Dare
Try
Bleed your veins dry
In your daydreams
And seize every moment
But do not mistake
The favor of this sun
For a horse who can run
Without feeding

In your worm-holed mind
With your heart barely bleeding
You pierce the protector
And leave his receding
While you wait for your
Paper prince charming

Yet he stands at that mountain top
(though you claim not to see him)
Still singing your praises
In wet dreams
On rocks
In the streams of his gazes

Your paper walls
No match for his fire
Which melt them
And in so revealing
A floor-boarded heart
Naked shining and reeling
From a love that you never dared feeling



Sept 25th
-----Original Message-----
From: Fair Maiden Juliet [mailto:fairmaidenjuliet@xxx.edu]
Sent: Tuesday, September 27, 2005 4:57 PM
To: .: Fishy
Subject: RE: julia butterfly

boy have you been on my mind.
i got the message about the rocket ship, how is coming by the way?
you talking about julia butterfly hill? did polly tell you about that?
decided that i am going to learn mandarin, starting this year. it is aligned with what i want to study and where i want to be on my 40th birthday.
Fishy Fishy Fishy were you at the d.c. protest?
do you know what a touchstone is?
back to researching here in ye olde repository of knowledge.
do you know who alex grey is? ( i think that's the name-- new yorker--painter-- sacred transformational anatomy and...)
love YOU
cheers-----Juliet

JULIIIIIIEEEEEEETTT I miss you!!!!
You and Polly told me about julia hill. You told me I would fall in love with her. I believe I did. our rocket ship is coming along, slower than I expected... tell Okie and Athena to hang on...
You are going to learn mandarin? Wow. AFTER fucking French I want to learn an Asian language... I love the sound of them. and china would be your best bet. Economically speaking I mean... they are the new king on the block. did not go to the protest physically but sent out a message from the General. Did you receive it? a classic flash movie. Let me know. a touchstone = julia hill and her tree sit, or the 1999 Seattle protests, or the time I got my first period... yes? the first time I had sex with Annette from down the block... wow... Alex grey is a cult hero to many right now... I want to hook with that mofo. But I am so fucking broke right now I am having difficulty doing the usual ambassador activities. Keep up the good work Jules. See you soon. love you too. F





Sept 24th
More...
The feminine says la la la la la la. C'mon lets play. The masculine says o.k. but kiss me. the fem says no way. that's gross. I don't feel that way about you. the masc says I know I know. I don't feel that way about you either. but kiss me anyway. The masc doesn’t know what to do with what they are experiencing... he tries to fit it into the boxes he knows best. its just that dance between the fem and the masc. and its beautiful and lovely and exhilarating. If not a little frustrating... that's all. but I will tell you this my love. You are not alone in it.


Sept 23rd
The big rich countries of the world are trying to bully the country of Iran to stop attempting to harness nuclear energy because they “don't believe” they are doing it for peaceful means – meaning that they may not be using it just for energy. They might be using it to build nuclear weapons... the irony of course is that the rest of these countries that are doing this to Iran all have large nuclear arsenals of nuclear weapons themselves already... hey as long as we can keep them below us so they can’t protect themselves then we can keep doing whatever we want to them... one assumes that's the idea... big bad bully imperialism at its finest. So they are threatening to impose economic sanctions on the country and its people. that's called blackmail in the real world of course. but in the fake world, they call it ‘starving the people of a country to force their government to do what we want because we are bigger and richer....) I'm so sick of the big tyrannical governments of the world. if they don't want Iran to have nuclear weapons then they might try to get rid of their own first, or shut the hell up.

Last screening: butterfly, the story of julia hill, known as butterfly, the girl who sat in that tall tree in cali in 97 to try to stop Pacific Lumber from cutting it down. [she stayed there for two years and got them to agree to protect 200 acres surrounding that tree finally before coming down.] Totally inspiring must see if you are activist minded. You will fall in love with her. Be inspired by her. she is a Princess. My God people what are we doing? What the hell are the rest of us doing if one person can do that?

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A note on violent activism: studying the history of the Tsars of Russia, one is quickly and very effectively reminded of how violence in activism for positive social or political change is NOT the answer that WE are looking for. there was the time in the late eighteen-hundreds or early nineteen hundreds when this revolutionary group who was trying to free the Russian people from the tyrannical clutches of the tsars, and their device was to try to kill him. I don't remember which tsar it was. perhaps Alexander. And here is the irony. He knew there was a problem. he knew that things needed to change. He knew the people weren't happy. and he started the first parliament ever in Russia. He began making more and more changes to head the country to a more democratic system. But this revolutionary group who had good intentions but who were just misguided felt that the only way for total freedom and democracy was for them to kill the tsar. They attempted to assassinate him about ten times and finally they were successful – believe it or not sending something like five separate suicide bombers at once to his carriage. And that finally got him. But what happened was that then he became this kind of martyr to the average ignorant masses of Russia, and his son then became tsar and used this killing of his father- -the patriarch of the Russian people type of a propaganda tactic – to totally strip all the positive reforms that his father had initiated over the years and take the country back to complete autocratic rule even disbanding the parliament.

There was a good lesson in that for me. we are not out to kill or do violence. We must remember that is what we are fighting against. These Russian revolutionaries no matter their end goal or intention were wrong. they made a mistake. Not just morally. But in the end, they ended up reversing many of the goods that other activists had accomplished over the years for the great country of Russia. An important lesson and something we need to remind ourselves of when we get angry....


The other big lesson to be gained from this Russian revolution is that in the end because they weren't organized well enough and well versed enough in democratic systems they ended up going from the tyranny of the tsars right into the just as tyrannical clutches of Lenin and his twisted version of communism, which was just as bad on the people. just as autocratic and tyrannical and not-democratic.

Of course the French revolution brought us napoleon, a truly insane, though brilliant perhaps, evil murdering fuckhead bastard. So the bigger picture for future generations of peoploids is that revolution is not even the answer at this point any more. not in the strict sense of what the word normally connotes to most of us.

Though a slower process, we need to shift subtly to increased evolution of our own system, the republic system or democratic system. but it has to be slow and subtle and organized.