Avatar Wizards Course Day 9

Maybe day 9. Not totally sure. Best morning lecture so far. As in WOW! But alas I felt that way about yesterday's and Friday's lectures too. Go figure. Harry Palmer is a genius. In the real sense of the word. [genius takes so many forms that it would be useful to explore the subject at another time. Note.]
If interested in this kind of thing go to eBay or amazon.com and pick up a used copy of Palmer's first book entitled LIVING DELIBERATELY. The fIrst time I read it I did it in one sitting in the bath. Blew my mind. After hundreds and hundreds of hours of research and probably twice as many books, this was the first time in my short life up to that point that I had read a book in the field of Cosmology, psychology, philosophy, theology or Cosciousness research where I felt the author knew as much as I did -- (you either get this or you don't) -- as in that the real key to it all is to humbly admit to what we don't know as much as to what we know; i.e. don't have a hidden agenda that needs to be masked by pretending that you know it all. As in he didnt say one thing that required an intelligent mind to suspend disbelief or accept ideas that were fantastical -- yet at the same time he offered rational solutons to age old cosmological and cosciousness (both human and beyond) mysteries.
I dont want to give it away. Nor do I want to spend any time reviewing or anylizing Ideas. This is just a quick plug -- for those of you who recognize there is more to it than meets the eye, and you've got a sneaky suspiscion that it's somewhere between and yet has nothing to do with the wisdom of ancient religions, mystics and physics then you're in for a real treat.
For a quicker fix head to YouTube and watch some of his lectures for free. For the first time in 30 years these historically confidential lectures are now being released to the public in order to speed up the awakening of the planet.
Prepare for at least two or three things at the start: you'll need to listen a few times to certain sentences. He goes deep and he goes there fast. It's ok not to get it all in one go. IPod or iPhone them in order to view a few times. Two, if this is your type of subject matter you'll immediately feel a sense of relief awe and excitement to hear someone speaking so intelligently clearly simply and without personal agenda.
A possible number three may be a subtle judging or anylizing whether or not you believe he's right or wrong... Whether "you" "agree" with what he is saying or not. This is natural. I did it. We all do. I believe it's a healthy symptom of personal power and or responsibilty. No one who runs or takes the Avatar courses wants mindless will-less submissive slave beings at the bottom of the personal power ladder, those looking to accept ideologies whole without contemplation or introspection in order to worship someone or something else outside of themselves. That just isn't what this is about. So feel into it all and see how it fits/feels to you. Your intuition will make a good guide whether it's right for you now or not.
If you find yourself reading the book or listening to the lectures and being overly critical on the other hand, as in "that's not the truth! I know the truth and that's not it... That's not the smartest thing I've ever read, etc" label it as an unintegrated aspect of the ego's attempt to protect its asserted sense of being right / smart / the greatest etc. Don't let it rule your life or lead you. Dig?
I gotta run... Get back to playing with the materials. Beautiful stuff.

Random Fact: there are 255,268 possible outcomes to tic tac toe.

Last Screening: JANE EYRE the original with Orson Welles and Joan Fontaine. Welles is incredible in this film. Mumbles like a madman. But he's so intense. It's almost funny due to how different humanity is now... This kind of high handed mellow-drama wouldnt fly today, but it's a damn good classic. Just see it.

And... THE CONSTANT NYMPH starring Charles Boyer and Joan Fontaine. 24 year old Fontaine plays a 14 year old teen in love with a much older composer (Boyer). These notes are as much for me as they are for you, whoever "you" are, remember. The memory of this 1942 movie will stay with and haunt me for the rest of my life. SEE IT. It's beautifully written and very moving.

Current read: SIDDHARTHA by Hermann Hesse. Yes, again. Every few years you can't go wrong reading this one again say no more. ; >