An amazing day with Mitch. brunch in the union square area. Then walking all around the downtown area of the city, just meandering with no intention, catching up. hadn't seen each other in almost two years. he's lived here forever so he showed me around. all the cool places. We strolled through noho, soho, nolita, the village, west village, Chinatown, little Italy. Walked for hours. Literally all day. what a beautiful varied cultured city this is. no place like it in the entire world.

And then I trained up to what I thought was going to be this cool church uptown that advertised a full gospel choir at a 6pm service. But no gospel choir at all.

I decided to stay anyway just to cop the God vibe. But what I got instead was, well, the usual perverted and distorted view of reality that the Christian religion offers as its usual fare. I mean, I went there really wanting to dig in, you know. I mean, I was raised Christian so its easy to sort of try to overlook all the untruths and half truths in their beliefs and just cop the positive vibage, in spite of all the holes and problems in the fundamentals of what's underneath it all. sometimes I can do it and sometimes I cannot. When its more open minded and just good positive vibes I can do it. like the Unity Church. I can dig that. and when there is kicking Pentecostal preaching and grooving gospel music going on and tambourines shaking I can get into it and forgive them for all the other misgivings inherent in their limited understanding of life on earth.

But not tonight. within five minutes I was realizing we weren't in Kansas anymore, or better put, we weren't in nyc anymore; it was more like we were in Kansas. The preacher starts reading from the book of Samuel in what they call the bible about how this God that they created and still find a way to believe in after all these years had instructed Saul to completely exterminate the entire city and all of the people of amalicyte. The whole sermon was about how Saul didn't do this completely and wanted to save the king and save the best of the sheep and lamb and how much of a sin that was, to disobey this God.. And I'm sitting there thinking ‘who the fuck believes in a God who instructs people to kill whole cities and whole nationalities of people?’ I mean, who in this day and age is still so ignorant and unevolved to still believe in a God this base and impure and un-transcendent? And yet I was sitting in a room filled with these people.

To imagine that these people take the bible as something holy... I was filled with fear for the human race for about thirty minutes while I was sitting in there. ‘these people are hundreds of years less evolved than we are’ I was thinking. they are taking this crap as some kind of holy word of God, real eye for an eye stuff. real low-minded unevolved stuff. and I was really saddened by it. the preacher is screaming that when God tells us to destroy a whole city and all of its people then we better listen no matter what. and I'm thinking ‘you have got to be kidding. This has got to be a joke. There is no way these people believe this shit. and yet clearly they do. they believe that God is a spiteful vengeful God, that he wishes to kill people. that he wishes us to kill people. and yet one of their ten commandments is thou shall not kill. Crazy stuff. absolutely insane asylum stuff. the only thing that stops us form locking all the Christians up in insane asylums is that the majority of the country are still Christians. But by all logical accounts their beliefs are so unfounded and so dangerous that they would all be proved entirely insane in any court of law. But because the whole country was founded on these Christian beliefs we let it all fly and hang out no matter how ridiculous it is.