Memories

Today we spent all fourteen hours at the hit factory/criteria studios in Miami. this was time that we had purchased years and years ago that we just never bothered to use. Kept making album after album at other places and never used this up so for the last few months we have been rehearsing songs for this album knowing that we would go to this world-class state of the art studio and just spend all day and all night recording and try to nail down the rhythm tracks to all the songs on the new album in one shot. We almost made it. recorded nine songs. Plus an extra thing or two.

Memories. Tired. Past two am now. just want to capture the moments before they disappear into the events of tomorrow. songs were: we are columbine, messed it up again, blind eye, song for Jasmine, Solaris, all your heroes become villains, here it comes, she's so bad, all of my love (not the zeppelin song). I think that was it. jasmine won't go on this CD, but on the girls CD. we need one more rocker for this one and then it will be complete.

Memories: I love these boys and feel as horrified and scared and sad that I am leaving them to move as I am convinced that that is precisely what I need to do for my life. so I am caught between these strange feelings. Knowing intuitively that I am not comfortable here anymore and need to get back to the city, but at the same time wondering what the hell am I doing moving away from my band at the peak of our fucking careers as a group together. me and Infinito have been together for six years now, having founded the group back in 98. he was so stellar today. everyone was.

This studio is like forty years old or more. maybe fifty years old. ‘I feel good’ by James brown was record here. the rumors album. All the bee gees hits. Saturday night fever, grease, layla, hotel California, lenny Kravitz, bob seger, Iggy pop, American fool by John cougar, and all the Aretha Franklin hits, the list goes on and on forever. gold records line every wall in that place. REM recorded monster here, my favorite of theirs, and their last two or three as well. they just left a few weeks ago. Missy Elliot was in there tonight in another room. It was just such an honor for us to be there in this place of such infamy and history. And it really rose us up to this whole other level as a group. Fred the producer couldn’t believe how great we were. He spent most of the time just getting baked out of his mind but helped us out a lot with arrangements. He felt like a proud father, comparing what we were like today to when he recorded us for the sleep with you album two years ago. Impressed by how far we have come as individual musicians.

Part of me feels sad that we are not successful yet for how hard we work and how good we are. It is not hard to feel that sadness underneath it all. after all, objectively and in all honesty, I am at the peak of songwriting right now in my career, famous or not. I'm just peaking. But I'm not peaking for the masses or in front of millions of adoring fans, but pretty much just for the few who know and love us. and that's a small number of people.