Hola chica,

Te necesito decir algunas cosas muy imprtante.

En ingles so i can express myself quickly and completely. Espero que tu me puedes comprender todos. 

Tonight meant a lot to me. being with you. talking with you.

I understood many things you said. Perhaps I did not comment on everything. But I heard everything you said.

There is a part of me that I do not understand about us. But there is something I am not feeling about us as a couple in the long term. Something I do not feel inside of me. Normally this would not be a problem. after all, we are friends. And we go out together and have fun together. And normally I would just go with this and have fun. But something inside of me tells me not to do this with US, with YOU. I do not know what it is. and I feel very uncomfortable talking about it. because I do enjoy being with you very much. I look forward to being with you and I am always surprised by how much we have in common. No? muchas cosas. Es incredible! Tantos cosas en comun. Pero there is still something that is there that i cannot understand between us that bothers me. that makes me uncomfortable. 

I know that you can feel this. because you are a woman. and I can feel that you can feel how I feel. entiendes? I know you feel what I feel. or perhaps I am feeling what you are feeling???

But I like you so much as a person that it is not fair for me not to express this to you. No es justo. So I have to express myself to you. about how I feel. sometimes I think that it is our communication. And how challenging it is. sometimes I think it is otras cosas. No se. pero yo se that it is something. there is something there that is not quite right and that is not fair to US as people. I try to tell myself that we are just friends and that I should enjoy being with you as a friend and enjoy the good times that we share together. But when I am with you I want to kiss you. this is only natural. But it is not fair to us. because we will get closer and closer and closer. We are on our way to becoming lovers. Slowly. But this is where we are headed. I think of making love to you often. But something in me tells me that this is not right. 

So I need to be honest with myself about this and honest with you about this. no matter what happens, this is the most important thing.

You are such an amazing person. everyday I curse myself that I cannot feel what I want to feel. because in so many ways we seem perfect for each other. But in these matters it is important to follow our hearts and not our minds. And in this case I am telling you how my heart feels. It makes me very sad to acknowledge this. it makes me sad to think about it, and it makes me sad to tell you about it. but I do because I like you and respect you. and myself. 

I wish I could say that we can be friends. And that is it for a while until we get to know each other more. but this is not being real. We are beyond being friends right now with each other. Perhaps one day we can be friends. But for now I feel that we are too close to each other already. Again this is something that is very sad for me to talk about. but it is how I honestly feel. 

I hope you understand what I am saying. I am sorry that I cannot say this en espanol. And I am sorry that I cannot say it in person. but I think that some things are better to be written and not spoken. 

It is such a pleasure meeting you and knowing you. and I am sorry that I am writing this. but it is only fair. To both of us. 

I am open to hearing you and how you feel. and I will understand. No matter what. Again, I know, I feel, that you probably feel the same way inside yourself. 

Sincerely,

Fishy