At this point where I feel like giving up music career entirely. not music, but music career. haunting me. round and round in my brain, how do you give up a music career and still be making music? it makes no sense man, what you're saying. you're going to keep making music, releasing albums, creating new paintings so to speak, but you're going to give up your music career? makes no sense man, I tell myself. You're just discouraged. Lets face it, you like money. you like having lots of money. and right now you're not making lots of money so you tell yourself that you're going to give up to make yourself feel better for not making lots of money. but what are you going to give up really? Making music? nah. Probably not. face it now. get on with it. move on. Its what you do. painters don't stop painting. Get drunk if you have to, laugh at yourself, laugh at the world, scream and shout some obscenities at life, pass out, wake up again, and start anew. But for gods sake shut up with your giving up talk. I am bored with that aspect of you.

Current spin: Rufus wainright, want two. LOVE IT. really good Rufus. Lazy, melodic, orchestral, laconic, depressing, semi-tragic, no make that tongue in cheek tragedy for the person who has everything and still wants to be depressed. This will go down as one of his best works. goes down smooth. The fucking guy...