July 21st, 2005
On the phone with itunes today about how one
great they are and have been for us and two how awful they are at the
same time because its so easy for people to just hand each other a stack
of cds and have their friends burn them into their itunes system on
their hard drives. We talked for about an hour about it. they tried to
get me to see how much better it is now than a few years ago when people
were just downloading for free. And I see that. but I also see how easy
it is to grab your friends cds and burn them into your system. shit I'm
DOING IT!!! and lately I've really been questioning it. I mean, after
all, we are still stealing. Say what you will, but we are still stealing
music. its one thing to borrow your friends CD for a few days for a
free listen. but its another thing to take it forever into your hard
drive... man but its just so fucking easy... how can we stop it? should
we stop it? can I as a music lover stop myself even? its true that if I
get the new lcd sound system from polar bear, and I like it, that I will
go buy the rest of their back catalogue, BUT I'm still getting that new
one for free and putting it into my ipod. Interesting. Perhaps one day
we will find a way to stop it. get the control out of the hands of the
consumer and back into the control of the people who actually make the
music, the artists and labels who are spending the time energy and money
on making the product. in no other industry is their such potential for
such rampant stealing of product. imagine for a moment going into a
grocery store and being able to just fill your basket with food and walk
out of there without paying all because we have found a way
technologically to do so without getting caught. So we justify it to
ourselves because after all we aren't getting caught or getting into
trouble... this is what's happening in music right. or imagine sneaking
into a movie theatre to see the newest craze just because you can. most
people wouldn’t because quite frankly they'd feel like losers. What's
ten bucks for a movie? So what is the difference with music? well, I
don't know. I'm asking myself the same questions. Because I'm just as
guilty of it still and I make my own living from selling music. so why
would I partake? Why? because I can get away with it. Crazy.
I
am still knee deep into this process I have chanced upon whereby I am
searching for past transgressions, misconduct, wrong-doings and healing
them one by one....
Looks something like this. [this
is from a letter to rockaway I sent him today to help him deal with a
recent problem/conflict he is having with a guitar player in town]
Bro,
breathe deep and check this out. And when you feel in a secure place,
ask yourself what is your responsibility in this..... take a piece of
paper and gently and lovingly write down each different incidence of
misconduct or transgression that you feel like you committed against
Tony; and then other people regarding talking behind their back (since
this is what you are upset about him doing to you).... write down what
you did, write down why you did it (to get attention or approval etc....
to feel better than others... to feel cool in the moment), and then let
that all go. acknowledge it, feel sorry for it, see what and why you
did it, see how it affects your life, make amends if you feel you can or
want to, and then let it go.. this doesn’t make Tony right in the
situation, but it allows you to clean up your part in it. it allows you
to be clear. it allows you to free up more of your own
attention/creating energy. And usually it helps you see the bigger
picture of why you would create something like this happening in your
life. after this, then lets see how you feel about Tony. And then lets
see how he is showing up in your world.... o.k.? good luck and may the
force be with you. love, Fishy
So yes this is what I
am doing STILL. day after day I spend a few hours late at night doing
it. things pop up in my mind. Based on the integrity rundown from Avatar
basically. One of The questions is “list any current conflicts you are
in.” so I am through with present time and now I am working on my high
school and junior high school years. I look for anyone that has a charge
for me. anyone that my attention sticks on. even though this is years
and years ago, you will find that there are still plenty of people that
if you feel into it have a charge for you, that when you think about
them you feel bothered for some reason. They can be people that you know
you transgressed against in some way and just never bothered to look
into it or acknowledge it, or they can be people that you feel have hurt
you in some way. usually if you look deep enough you will find some
point where you did something to them OR some point when you did a
similar thing to someone else. sometimes they are small things. like ‘I
moved the ouiji board piece and pretended that it was moving by itself
with my friend David and all these years I have felt like a liar....’
you cannot believe the sense of freedom and release and relief you feel
from this! its fucking mind-blowing. We hang onto this stuff in our
consciousness forever it seems and then we act and react based on how we
feel about these things but very subconsciously... we don't even know
this stuff is still there....
Sometime they can be big
things that we just repressed. Things we don't want to look at. things
we are still justifying. Things we are still trying to find a way in our
mind of not remembering or rationalizing why we did it. Picking on your
younger brother or sister, or making fun of some other kid in school to
try to make yourself feel cool. or man I'm not going to list anything
big here but I have found tons of little things from high school and
junior school that I am not too proud of.... things that have been there
all along and that I have been living through... it has helped so much
free up my attention and energy. I feel so much more relaxed, softer,
more myself, less on guard, more able to look people in the eye and be
myself. little by little everyday I am letting it go and becoming more
happy to be me. it feels like enlightenment. It feels amazing. great
stuff.
I spoke with
little Havana today and she asked how my love life was doing. I told her
I was sort of seeing this older woman, and last night I had this
opportunity to be with an even older woman. I Googled her today and
found out she was about 60 or 65. She was aghast. ‘What?! what are you
doing Fishy?!’ ‘you know, I just want the experience. Its so crazy. but
c'mon I want the experience of that. how awesome that is!’ and she asks
me ‘whatever happened to your fetish girls?’ ‘oh I'm over that phase
now. I'm into the older women now.’ she tells me “They should make a
planet out of you Fishy. you are your own planet.” Use that for a song
or album title. they should make a planet out of you. hey, can I use
that? sure, feel free.
Last screening: the classic,
maltese falcon. In my ongoing discovery of Humphrey Bogart. This is one
of his most famous classics. He plays Sam spade, the derelict dick with a
pension for fast talking people out of cash whenever he sees an
opportunity or slugging people just because they did that a lot back
then. all these old movies, guys just hit each other out of the blue all
the time. A small picture, like all the old movies, but no less
dramatic because of that. you can’t believe at the end that he turns the
girl in. its great. thoughts: movies are much bigger now, but not
necessarily better. Back then the characters had a sense of realness and
drama that a lot of times they don't seem to possess these days, though
I cannot say why. could it be that we are around now? so we see the
bullshit media hype behind the stars all the time like brad pitt etc? so
we just don't respect them as much? Whereas with Bogart we weren't
around back then so he has become a sort of icon to us because we only
see his movies and not the behind the scenes stuff??? I'm not sure yet.
but there is such an intensity to him onscreen. You really believe him
in his roles. I'm a fan now. maybe that's just what made Bogart Bogart
so to speak.
Current spin: LCD sound
system, lcd sound system. creative. Addictive. Can’t stop listening to
it. reminds of young David Byrne before he got serious. There is a song
called losing my edge that everyone must hear at least once.
Also, the BOOKS. This is a great project. Amazing experimental music. get it.
Also,
serge gainsbourg, comic strip. My oh my those French were cheesy. You
have to hear this stuff to believe it. it is major cheese. I'm not
saying its bad. But its everything that sixties French music was... just
over the top tongue in cheek campy kitschy stuff... girl back ground
singers and all... really silly.
Last
screening: DIG. This is the best. It’s about the bands Brian Jones town
massacre and dandy warhols. This is the best rockumentary I have ever
seen. it’s a must see!!!!! Really good. critics and observers were right
about anton. He deserved the bad rap. He comes off like an asshole and
an idiot. his band seem cool. but their music doesn’t sound very good.
the dandies on the other hand made some really great music in their
time. I don't see how Courtney was influenced by anton at all... or
intimidated by him. he was better, wittier, classier. Maybe he was just
influenced by his personality.... that whole art for arts sake thing...
which can be a potent aphrodisiac, but in that case one often forgets to
actually pay attention to the product or output itself. Such was the
case with Andy Warhol. Where his asthetic influenced generations but his
art (what art?) just never lives up the hype. But his cult of
personality was something to behold and to be reckoned with.
by the way: this is really cool: fucking humans. We are cool.
(In Case of Emergency)
Following
the disaster in London... The Ambulance Service has launched a national
"In Case of Emergency ICE)" campaign. The idea is that you store the
word "ICE" in your cell phone address book, and against it enter the
number of the person you would want to be contacted "In Case of
Emergency".
In an emergency situation ambulance and
hospital staff will then be able to quickly look at your mobile phone
and find out who your first contact should be and be able to contact
them.
It's so simple that everyone can do it. Please
do. Email this to everybody in your address book, it won't take too
many "forwards" before everybody will know about this, and it will
become an international practice. For more than one contact name use:
ICE1, ICE2, ICE3, etc. It really could help the emergency services in
doing their job.
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