Working out tonight after a full fucking day I was just rocking like lightening. On fire. Ideas shooting out of my brain. Twenty minutes of cardio, then about a half hour of weights, and then I put on some gloves and hit the bag and practiced jabs and cross for a while till I was just totally fatigued. Boxing is very cool.

Last screening: me and Isaac Newton. This is a documentary about some of the most cutting edge scientists of our time. especially finding the cognitive psychology work of Steven pinker interesting. And michio kaku the physicist. “what I find the most fascinating is that as I am formulating these ideas of a unified field theory here at this time... that there is someone else, another man or woman or being thinking about the same thing a trillion miles away in another galaxy... formulating the same idea...”

Current spin: NEK, greatest hits. Italian pop star. Nothing I would recommend but cool. kind of a Enrique Iglesias of Italy. Never managed to pull me under.

Slept 11 hours straight last night. slept right through the phone ringing and alarm going off. Didn't even hear them. The gradient is high here. the pulse is fast. the day to day grind is very difficult at this level. The walking everywhere, the cold, the expensiveness of everything, the subways; the no car scene is truly grinding if you are not used to it. the fast talking, no bullshit, no time for small talk mentality is stimulating and inspiring, but it still takes some time to get used to if you are just getting into it. can tire you out quickly. Last night I just dropped by midnight. Fell asleep with my clothes on. And woke up and realized that I had slept eleven hours straight. Don't think I ever did that before.

went to the gym tonight. awesome. last year I went to the gym a total of three times probably. Just slammed it working so hard all year. but not this year. I have to make the time to exercise. It feels great. Good vibes being there. sparks flying out of my brain with ideas.

Then to this cool and cozy club called Carnegie bar and books in midtown that is like half library and half jazz bar. Good times.

Current spin: serge gainsebourg, du exterior. Back on the French music tip. Try to make the learning of the language easier and sink in faster. This is cool laid back French tunage. Good for early morning or late night.

Last night was Halloween. Lots of functions in the evening. But you totally forget about the whole trick or treat aspect. I think that's why you need to get married. Just to have a woman around to remind you of stuff like that. trick or treaters came to the door and I'm like ‘here, I've got some guitar picks in my pocket. And some protein shakes in the fridge. Hang on I'll be right back....”

Writing songs constantly. Got the peavey classic 50 amp. This thing is sick. Sounds awesome. ‘We are columbine’ and another one maybe for Kurt Cobain, and this other one ‘Messed it up again.’ really cool. I hate where we are as a band right now, just how slow the process is. it drags the creative process down. I write way more songs than we have the money or the resources to record. its such a drag trying to catch things up to how fast I write. By the time our audience hears an album the songs are already two or more years old. And I'm way out of that phase and into a new one. I can’t wait to get it to that point where its instant. Right from the writing of the tune to the recording of the CD to the stores’ shelves. 

Yesterday at the gym I swear I heard the worst song I had heard in years, and no it wasn't that cheesy pandering Britney/Madonna song, as if that isn't formulaic enough, no but it was something about being invisible and the vocals were so bad and transparent. And it sounded like it was written in a songwriting factory. I was lifting and the feeling that I had was actually felt bad for whoever was singing. Like o.k. you know hey man don't worry you'll get better, its cool. Cause the voice was so annoying but you still want to be nice and encouraging ...I had no idea who it was. Funny... And then this morning I wake to read the top forty songs in America and guess what's at number one???!!!! this fucking song!!! No way. It’s some guy from some TV show or something. I heard about this show American idol, but I never saw it. and now I know why!!! this guy is on the radio now? Oh my God. Seriously, o.k. so listen, remember in the early nineties when hair bands ruled the roost and c&c music factory and all that and music was just dismal??? 

Then grunge came along and reminded us of why we liked music and how amazing it was and what it could do to our hearts and to our souls??? o.k. we need that to happen again. right now. today. this is insane. It doesn’t have to be grunge, but lets revolutionize things here again people. this is just too much. Does the top forty always have to be filled with crap? maybe, maybe not. But the good news is that the number two song is by Outkast and these guys are breaking the molds in every way. and there's the Dave Matthews song too. so maybe its just always going to be more of a mix now. the good with the bad. 

Current Spin: Dave Matthews, grave digger. This song is amazing! song of the week, song of the year. I'm not even a dmb fan. Never liked him. but this is just a great song. Now I'll be listening. 

Last Screening: unforgiven, Clint eastwood. Intense. In that kind of laid back Clint eastwood way.

Went to the gym and started working out again. Had to. Pure desperation. It's like if you don't work out for a while your mind starts to go crazy and your body feels all weird and flabby and older. What a feeling it was. Wow. I felt so good. I really hate not working out. After I work out I feel like I'm on top of the world. My brain starts firing a lot faster. I don't understand the mind of a person who doesn’t work out regularly. Maybe they just don't know cause they’ve never been there. But those who have and choose not to return.... strange.

I also started coaching again. I spent about three months without it. It's cool either way. But right now it helps to have that other voice on the phone just getting you totally focused and pumped up. I love coaching.

Current Spin: Father Bloopy, Ginger Baby. I'm still listening to this CD everyday. It is truly a classic. Unique songs. And now Bonito by Jaraba de Pala. Great video. And also the new tom petty album last DJ. This is a classic. 25 years and the guy is still making the best music of his career. Awesome.

Master of Self

In order to get stronger you have to continuously lift weights that are heavier than what you normally are accustomed to lifting. One week you cannot even think about curling fifty pounds. Two weeks later you are curling fifty-five. You just got stronger baby. And more toned. Lucky you. Deep realizations lately on this concept of challenging myself to do things that I don't want to do. Once you force yourself to do something that you at one point could not because you are afraid or because you just don't feel up to it then you really start to flex and test your strength and character.