The time is punctuated by long hours spent alone working. Lots of strangeness. Being without a car when you are used to having one is a strange phenomenon. In New York its no prob, well I take that back, it is still difficult. But being without a car in a city that isn't designed for that can be quite daunting. You tell your cab driver to stop at a local store so you can grab a few Starbucks double shots for the morning and by the time you get out the meter reads eight or nine bucks. Add that to the cost of the double shots themselves and you're talking some pretty expensive espressos. Band trying desperately to obtain booking so we can tour. found out that superhero girl hit number 15 on wlir in long island, New York. At the same time we were top five in Gainesville, FL. and here we are without a booking agent to go visit these towns. Rock and roll is not easy. even if we get the gigs, if they don't pay a lot, then we are still stuck trying to find a way to get the cash to pay for the bus or van and the traveling and lodging expenses.

I now understand the whole “where are they now” syndrome that affects so many artists. One minute they are top ten and you see them everywhere and then a few years later you haven't heard from them in years and wonder why they aren't out there making it happen. well that's why. cause it ain't that easy or cheap to get out there. even if you have fans that are buying your music and who want to see you. crazy business.

“I'm just too shy.
You're shy?
Yah. My God, you're the exact opposite of that. you're dripping with bravado.
Wow. Did you just make that up?
Yes. but its true. how can you say you're shy? Bloopy is he shy?
Don't ask me. I'm too shy to answer that.
How the hell can you know me for so long and not know how I am shy? I mean, except when I'm dripping with bravado that is.”

Note to self: “dripping with bravado”