In order to find the girl of your dreams, you have to be the man of her dreams. if you are looking for this amazing, intelligent, cultured, well mannered, well spoken, dazzling, sparkling, educated, beautiful woman of class, elegance, and style that is going to blow you away, and keep you forever inspired and stimulated, then make sure that you are being the kind of man that she is looking for. Do you understand Fishy? so who are you being? That is the real question. I can feel that. Do you think there is such a thing? What?

You know, like someone who is going to keep you happy and inspired forever...

For some people there is. For others perhaps not. That is up to you to decide for yourself. 

I think of Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman. Are they any worse off now that they have divorced and are with other people now? No probably not. Have they broken some code of honor or something? Or is it just the cycle of life and they’re just going with the flow of it? 

Yea I can dig that. and what's more, sometimes I think, man its prob better to just move on if you're in a dead end relationship or marriage that's not making either of you happy. In the old days there was this perception that it was bad or wrong or “a sin” to get divorced. Couples felt compelled to just suffer through their miserable marriages. But I think that's just a religious thing, and these days who believes in religion anyway. 

When you are an indie band, everyone is always trying to get you to get on some unsigned compilation CD, or get you on some unsigned or local radio show. But we always refuse. Same with the locals nights at clubs. That type of thing. Signed used to mean you had a contract with a major label. But now there are only a few major labels left. Because of all the monopolization and cannibalism that has gone on in the industry. There are just as many “signed” acts who never get heard of or make any money as indie acts, hundreds of them. The days of “signed” and “unsigned” are over. There's always going to be bands that consider themselves “unsigned” or local. And that's their choice. But good bands who aren't signed with majors but who are signed with indie labels have a better shot of making money than a lot of the bands I know who are signed to major labels. Those guys just sit around for months and months and years sometimes waiting to be a priority to some suit they’ve never even met. Fuck that. I think now its just like the film industry was a few years ago, when all of a sudden all these independent films were being nominated and winning academy awards. We get so many offers for unsigned stuff cause we aren't on a major and we always turn them down because we are not unsigned. We are signed. To an indie. And if people want to turn the insidious monopoly around that the music business has always been then they need to start changing how they're doing things. what they're saying, and how they're saying it. When artists like Aimee Mann and Prince are “unsigned” and people like Britney and “take a look at the top ten” are “signed” then there is definitely a revolution that needs to happen here. 

Last screening: buffalo bill and the Indians. An old Robert Altman movie with Paul Newman and a young Harvey Keitel. Cool because my great grandfather was the musical director for Buffalo Bill Cody’s Wild West traveling show for a while in the 1880’s and 90’s. so this was interesting for that. but really we are just trying to find films about the native American holocaust and we cannot find any accurate portrayals of what happened in American film. I promised my Jewish friends that I would not make this comparison (for they feel that it could potentially have an effect of somehow minimizing the tragedy of the Jewish holocaust—which is obviously not my intention) but I cannot help thinking about this. I just cannot believe that there have been so many films about the Jewish holocaust and none about the Native Americans’. You can’t find one accurate movie about what happened to them. its crazy. 95 million people from one race killed over a period of 400 years by an invading group of other races. Hundreds of tribes completely wiped off the planet by the invading Europeans. There are hundreds of cowboy and Indian movies, hundreds. And they are all twisted, bigoted, biased, propaganda films no different than the propaganda films Nazi Germany made about the Jews. Their only intention to bias the people against the Native Americans and cheer for the copyboys (invading white men). Its just crazy. and I can’t believe it. I am a part of this big cover up. we all are. we live here. Everytime I see movies where the white man/European is on a horse and sings the national anthem or says “land of the free and home of the brave” it makes my stomach churn.